Never Forget

    Source In a good and a bad way but, honestly more in a good way. I have been working on this sentence for quite a while now and haven't really thought of any good analogy or anything to explain what is changing but, it's good, it's good.    I have been playing games a lot with my online friends, we mainly play gacha games like Granblue Fantasy (GBF) especially right now since it's the 9th anniversary of the game. An online game surviving for this long is quite amazing, at least that's what I think.    Back to GBF, I have now dedicated my play time for it. I love the game, it keeps growing and growing, I get stronger and stronger. When I'm bored I play the game, when I'm bored playing it I don't play it, when I'm bored playing it I still play it. There's no other games that can make me act like this.    Another note, I am trying to train my voice. I was like this before, "I wanna sing a cutesy idol song, but my voice isn't really that...

     My father is dying. I do not care that much, though, he's still my father. I got my passport and now he's urging me to go to Alaska and work. He said I'm wasting time and money here for college. "3 to 4 years is too long" he said. My mother wants me to finish college to at least get a diploma, degree or something, and I think that's reasonable. And I kinda like the University I'm attending, people are good, maybe for now, but oh well.    Nearly everyone said that I should go excluding the inner circle of my family, my mother's side. My father is kind of an asshole, you see. So I think he deserve whatever's happening to him right now. By the way, he also have children the same age as my mother so think about that. He has a lot of children, so many that I can't use my fingers to count. It's baffling.     His days are numbered. His colon cancer is eating away his life, mainly at least. He has a lot of other illnesses and a number of them ...

   Shadowverse is mind draining. I hate it but I keep playing, an extremely healthy relationship with the game, yes. Though, I've calmed down now thanks to listening to one of 40mP's Miku songs "Initial Song". It feels so good listening to it again after 2 - 3 years. I rarely ever feel like this when listening to a song. I can't explain how it feels, it just feels nice. Maybe that's good enough. Though, I know my words of praises can't do justice to the song. So, I'll just say my honest, unadulterated feelings about it. I absolutely love it.    Back to Shadowverse, I have reached 9.8k points in Master Rank earlier but now I'm down to 8.7k.    This. Game. Really. Knows. How. To. Get. On. My. Nerves. Sometimes. No, scratch that. I just get frustration most of the time. Maybe a little sprinkle of joy when I win a match, but it gets canceled out anyway by the next, getting utterly crushed because it's a counter deck. Or just back game queueing, I u...

     So, school work, haha, I don't know anymore.     Anyway. I just want to play, to laze around, to sleep. But man, reality is harsh, I'm gonna be college soon but I'm bombarded with requirements upon requirements. I hate taking pictures, now I'm forced to do a video of me taking about how to be of help to the society. Oh well, I'll just do it.     I barely have time for my games at all, it might get even worse when I get to college. And now that I think about it, what would happen if I go have work?     Geez, I'll probably die young lmao, not that I'm complaining about it.         Finally maxed my King. Then they suddenly added the extra grailing system. Max level cap is now 120. Oh boy, more grind. Haha. It truly never ends.  Source: https://twitter.com/kumada_gaon/status/1522517440088862720?t=NufPR859UTwQK_cDdyP16A&s=19

  Guardian Tales    I love this game. Though, I admit that I quit before when this was still on beta. Doesn't matter, I still love this game. The story is getting more and more interesting as it gets further, but it also gets more confusing as it always gives me more questions than answers.    I hate the Arena though, it's buggy.        I try to evade the enemy's skill, I successfully evaded it, I get hit.       I try to evade the enemy's skill, I successfully evaded it, I lag for a bit, I get hit.    Man, it's annoying.      But, the beauty of this game is in its story. Not gonna lie, it made me feel bad about something I never did. And it tore my heart more than I expected so cheers on that. And Red is cute. She's far from being a guy. 

      Hello there.     It's very fun. Indeed it is. Everything is fun if you think about it, or think differently, look into things with a different mindset. You can find happiness in everything. In death there is happiness.     Why? Us, humans, are surrounded by death. Dead skin cells, hair, nearly everything on our skin is dead. Our body removes dead skin cells. And yet we're laughing, having fun with games, other people, etc. Even when we're surrounded by so much death, we smile because we don't know. Do we shed tears for people we don't know? Do you feel awful and grim when there's a kid, not older than 10, from another country, with different traditions and origins, most importantly, someone you don't know is probably getting abused by their parent or older people than them, even teens if you must.     We don't care because we don't know them and that is a fact. We can't possibly know what's going on in every corner of the...